One of many, really, just a particular one

This Sunday I had the pleasure of entertaining a friend in my new apartment for a couple of hours. In the course of our conversation, my friend, who is a polytheist like myself and, in addition, a former Catholic, asked me how I was handling returning to regular (Episcopal) church attendance, as a polytheist devoted to Antinous. Was it strange or difficult, she wondered, getting involved with Jesus again?

The question proved surprisingly easy to answer, or maybe not surprisingly, given that I had been thinking about it anyway. And given that I know of more than one pagan or polytheist who is a member of an Episcopal or Unitarian church, I thought my answers would be worth sharing.

First of all, being in church does not necessarily involve a devotional relationship with Jesus, if by “devotional” you mean having a lot of feelings. I have a lot of feelings for Antinous, and I pay him cultus every day; I don’t have the same feelings for, say, Mars or Minerva, but I still pay them respectful cultus at certain times. Sunday is a day when I pay cultus to Jesus, his Father, and the Holy Spirit, in a gathering with other people.

Second, being in church is mostly about the other people. It’s about community and communion with the people sitting in the pews with me, and with the people who came before us in the tradition. It’s about pre-Reformation saints like Benedict, the father of Western Christian monasticism, Hildegard of Bingen, and Julian of Norwich; it’s about specifically Anglican forebears like John Donne, George Herbert, Dorothy Sayers, C.S. Lewis, Madeleine L’Engle. And it’s about my childhood, the Book of Common Prayer and the Hymnal, a body of literature that includes but is far from exclusive to the Bible. The luminaries of the Anglican spiritual tradition are also leading lights of English literature. Being in church, thus, is as much ancestor worship as anything else.

It’s true that the Christian liturgy, no matter how progressive or in what denomination, assumes a theology of monotheism and, ultimately, the superiority of Christianity over other religions. However, there is a lot of ancient religious literature, including a good chunk of the Hebrew Scriptures, that assumes polytheism, but still addresses a particular deity as The Greatest of All Time. Many of the deities of Egypt were hymned as creator, all-giver, supreme on earth and in heaven, all-wise, all-powerful, and so forth–while twenty miles away, another deity entirely was praised in the same way. The fancy word for this is henotheism, which Wikipedia defines as “the worship of a single god while not denying the existence or possible existence of other deities.” In ancient Thebes, you called Amun the supreme god; in Rome, Jupiter was the all-ruler; in Athens, it was Zeus, but the Greeks, Romans, and Egyptians did not argue woh was *really* the supreme deity. While I’m in church, the Christian Trinity is the One God (even if I think they are actually three).

Antinoan scholar P. Sufenas Virius Lupus once said to me, “Jesus and Antinous have been friends for a long time.” This seemed self-evidently true to me at the time, and still does. PSVL also once wrote about looking at the gods as individuals who hold certain values, rather than as bureaucrats with certain functions. For example, Antinous is not really The Gay God (a lot of the gods are pretty gay by our standards) or a god of gayness, sitting behind a lavender desk in a celestial bureaucracy and signing forms pertaining to gay people with a purple pen. Rather, he is a god who values gay and lesbian, bisexual, queer, and trans people, along with prophecy, healing, poetry, hunting, theatre, and introducing mortals and immortals to one another at parties. Jesus is a god who values the poor, the marginalized, the excluded, the Othered, which means that in our culture right now, he and Antinous are concerned about a lot of the same people. And Jesus also likes parties with plenty of wine.

From a Christian point of view, I suppose, I am a contumacious heretic, but from a polytheist point of view, Jesus is one of many gods and it’s up to me, or any individual, whether I want to worship him. Ask me about my heresies, and I’ll gladly explain them to you.

3 thoughts on “One of many, really, just a particular one

  1. Fascinating. I assume your pastor is in dialog with you about your heterodoxy. It sounds like your worship is actually of Antinous, with an allowance for Jesus in the pantheon, as a Demi-god.

    Do you seriously believe that Jesus (if he bears even the remotest resemblance to the person described in the Christian scriptures) would accept this?

    Oh, and you “believe” that Roman emperors had the power to deify? Surely this is simply a philosophical “theology” you espouse? I hope you are hearing in your minister’s preaching a very different gospel.


    1. In fact, the associate rector is aware that I am a polytheist. The interim rector is not, and actually, I consider it none of his business.

      As I make clear elsewhere in this blog, yes, I am a worshipper of Antinous, primarily. I regard both him and Jesus as gods, full stop. I am not a monotheist; I believe “god” is a word which has a legitimate plural.

      Do I seriously believe that Jesus accepts this? Yes, I do. Jesus seems to be far more accepting than the organization that claims his name tends to be.

      As to your final question, no, I don’t believe Roman emperors had the power to deify. In my opinion, the deification of dead emperors was more like the promulgation of sainthood in later Catholic tradition. But Antinous was not, contrary to popular opinion, deified by Hadrian. He was deified by Egyptian theology, already some 3000 years old at the time of his death, that anyone who drowned in the Nile became one with Osiris, who achieved his deity as ruler of the afterlife in the same way. Many deities also means many theologies.

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  2. That’s pretty much the way I relate to Jesus (and Magdalene) these days. Our relationship goes way back, he’s part of my spiritual formation, and I want to be in alignment with *his* values (not modern church values).


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